I'm just starting this blog. Recently we've moved into a new house and I don't have internet hooked up yet. I'll make this pretty once I have internet.
I am pretty excited about 2012. 2011 was a very rough year for our family. I went from being a stay at home mom to a single mom. What an adjustment that has been. I remember how hard it was, crying myself to sleep every night, dealing with questions and behavioral issues from my then 3 year old, worrying about money. Worrying if I would be adequate enough to be a single parent and raise my two boys without messing them up. I couldn't understand why this was happening to us. During that time I lost my very best friend and to this day I still miss that person and regret that things had to be that way. That was the darkest time I've ever had in my life.
I joined DivorceCare at my church. What an amazing class that was! I'm so thankful my church offers that class. I met friends in that class that I'm still very close to today. During this time, I saw my relationship with God grow more than it ever has. My faith was strong..He provided for us through everything. We never needed anything. All of our needs were taken care of. For years I've prayed for God to grow my faith. I have no doubts that going through this divorce is what He used to answer that prayer. If you pray for something, be ready because you never know how He will choose to answer that prayer!
I always debate if I want to make "resolutions" or not. I never keep them. But, I decided to this year. I want 2012 to be a great year for me and my boys. I have a few things and I want to have this blog to help keep me accountable and collow through with my resolutions this year.
1. Spend more one-on-one time with Cade and Liam. I've already started this one. I've had a date night with each of them this week. I have 2 very fun little boys. I cannot express in words how much I love them. Seeing their smiles, hearing them say "I love you, mommy", getting lots of hugs and kisses...they make everything I went through the past u years worth it. I'm excited to work on my relationship with them this year.
2. Read through the Bible. Our pastor has challenged us to read the entide Bible this year. It's sad to say I have never done that. So far, I have stuck to this resolution. I am using Youversion and every day it gives me verses to read and I will finish by the end of this year. I know God is going to grow me more this year by doing this!
3. Get out of debt! Last year, while I was still married, we went through Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University. No doubt that came at exactly the time I needed it. I've learned to budget, save and not spend money I don't have. It was definitely a life changing class and I will never view money the same. I have a very small amount of debt, which will.be gone in the next few months. After that, my plan is to not have debt again. I will be getting a newer, bigger car but I will pay cash. I'm excited to work on my savings so if an emergency does come up, I won't have to go into debt to cover it. It's amazing the security financial planning will give you :).
4. Get healthy! Yes, I want to lose weight, but more than that I want to be mindful of what I put into my body. I believe God calls us to be good stewards of what he gives us, whether that's our time, family, money, body....whatever He blesses us with, we should take care of. My goal is to cut out processed, refined foods. That includes givig up Diet DP. Sigh. That's going to be a tough one. But, the more I think about it, I should not have to rely on a certain food or drink to gwt me through the day. That's as bad as any other addiction. And that's what it is...an addiction. A friend and I are motivating each other to cut processed sugar out of our diets. That's another addiction I want to break. While I know I'm not overweight, I'm not healthy and food is my "drug". It's time to get this under control and use food for what it is...nourishment and fuel for my body...it's not for me to pig out on or put nothing but processed junk into me. I want to teach my kids to be healthy and I can't teach them if I'm not healthy myself.
So, there you have it..my resolutions for 2012. I'm so excited to see how God is going to change me and my life over the next year. And I'll he writing about it right here!